sometimes, i just feel envious to those people who have a job. yes, a job that actually pays regularly on a monthly basis. of course i'm envious, as i dun have a job at the moment. but those who are employed would seriously agree when i say, 'a perfect job is a fairy tale.'
i've been searching (and waiting) high and low for 'that' job, but i think its about time to just give it up.
actually, i gave up quite sometime ago. as what others have advised me, lower your expectations. and i did. i think the others should advised the employers to do the same. crap.
the reason is, i'm currently on the verge of either refuse a job which requires me to be outstation for 5 months straight. which is... a bit to much for me. well, i dont mind being outstation, but at least i have these small intervals where i can go back home, kick back and relax. (or perhaps do the photography which i really love). but that wont happen if i take this job lah.
its like being sailing on a ship, except this is on land.
its either i suck it up, and take whatever is thrown on me, or just back off.
crap. this is hard.
let me list out the pros and cons.
pros.
- away from home (which means the nagging, the being yelled at)
- go to new places
- SALARY
- experience
cons.
- away from home (the comfort of my own room)
- new places which is seriously away from civilization (sort of)
- ditch my photography (the last thing i'm passionate about)
- away from her
- away from her
-away from... you know what.
see. if i take the job, i have to stand 5 months away. if i dont, then i dont know when on earth i'm gonna get a job that PAYS. dilemma?
crap.
i think i might turn down the job if i could get at least 4 photography jobs in a month. i might even consider fulltime photography.
care to help anyone?
i think not.
i'm so dead.
